Blazing Modesty Changes the World
Friday 4 March 2016
Collecting
It's been a little over 5 years since I set up this blog. Mostly I felt sorry for the Writer by Night having to put up with me ranting about the gender politics in every film we watched and the world around me, and decided I needed another outlet. I didn't really expect to change the world.
Then a few things happened - I got pregnant, I got trolled, I lost the troll and then the babies. I got pregnant again, and mostly wished I could conduct the next seven months from under a duvet, and then I guess I just lost the art of blogging. I've started to write several blog posts since, which have never made it to completion for a host of reasons. I've felt guilty about not putting writing, or any kind of creative work, to the top of my list in such a long time. I've struggled to find the space in my head and the time in the world. And the time in my head and the space in the world.
Now a few things have happened - I'm just about to return to work after my youngest child has turned one. I'm beginning to feel the urgency of having conversations about how society responds to gender in public rather than just in my living room. And this afternoon I dipped into Amanda Palmer's Art of Asking, where she talks about the process of creating art dividing into three categories: collecting, connecting and sharing. And this gave me a bit of an epiphany: over the past five years, I have been collecting. Collecting many thousands of experiences, many mundane, a few hyperbolically extraordinary. Suddenly I am not guilty of laziness, only hoarding. After reading that, it was like finding the loose bulb on the fairy lights, one little twist and suddenly, the whole string lit up, connections firing instantly and I was ready to share.
So I'm going to be writing more. And it's going to be a bit different, probably, because a lot has changed for me since I set the blog up. And discussion about feminism has changed too - finally, there are regular news stories about continued inequality, and the public reactions to women who highlight and try to change that continual inequality. Things are better, and worse. One of the things that spurred me on to write was a debate about periods on Channel Four news tonight. Really, they weren't debating periods exactly, but whether or not we should talk about them publicly, and the consequences of not. This tapped into a discussion I've been having with female friends recently about our bodies and how we didn't as children, and still don't, have words we feel comfortable with for our, well, parts we don't feel comfortable naming. Now raising our own daughters, AND sons, we want badly to fix this, with words we don't have.
I don't expect to change THE world. But I am determined to change my children's world. I've recently joined a political party, and have been chatting with another member about how, time and again, it's the male voices we hear in the room at meetings, even when there are roughly equal numbers of men and women present. If I want Batgirl and the Boy Wonder to grow up hearing female voices too, mine must be among them, discussing the undiscussable, facing the unfaceable, naming the unnameable.
Sunday 2 August 2015
Late Fragment
Tuesday was Wolf and Fox’s birthday (if this means nothing
to you, I explain a bit more here as part of my Jenny Ringo Saved My Life
blogs). We had a lovely family day out, treated
the Boy Wonder – and ourselves- to fish and chips for tea and put the living
kids to bed. Washed up, tidied away
toys, checked emails and settled down in front of the tv to watch our first
film together since forever: Birdman. We
made it to halfway through the 20th Century Fox logo before
Batgirl’s high-pitched shriek came over the baby monitor. By the time she was settled again, neither of
us was really in the mood.
The Writer by Night had a rare night out tonight. We decided that rather than wait another
forever before we could sit down together, we’d watch Birdman separately, so I
dug out my knitting and on it went.
Resume Playback? Said the bluray player.
Yes.
Less than 30 seconds in, the screen went black and letters
started appearing.
‘Did you get what you wanted in this life, even so?’
This is the first line of a poem etched on my heart, found
in an anthology in the days after Wolf and Fox were born, when my only children
were dead children. We needed words for
a funeral, and we had none. Some people
have written poetry specifically for such an occasion but any we found were (at
best) maudlin and trite. Raymond
Carver’s Late Fragment did what all
the best writing does; in expressing how I wanted to feel, it helped me feel
it. It is a poem that should be
available as an NHS prescription. It has
healing properties.
Did you see Birdman?
I think you should, it’s certainly an admirable achievement and I’m sure
it’s very good. But I could only watch
it – while also knitting a present for a happy, healthy newborn baby – through
the prism of those words and think about the strange synchronicity of it. Perhaps it’s best we didn’t watch it on
Tuesday, because I’m not sure we (I) could have made it past the poem. And when the Writer by Night came home last night we had a big discussion about this and he pointed out that every film you see, you see through a prism of that moment, so my response is no less valid for that. He's brilliant.
So this is what I saw through that prism:
The film is about the public, the private, the image of
ourselves we cultivate and project, and touches on the role of social media in
this. On Tuesday I wanted to post
something on Facebook about what a significant day it was, but couldn’t figure
out how. Something on the spectrum
between ‘Remembering my beautiful angels’
and ‘Dead Baby Day – we’re off to the zoo!’ . I thought about posting this Amanda Palmer song, picking out the lyrics ‘No one’s ever lost forever/ they are caught
inside your heart/ If you garden them and water them/ They make you who you
are’ but I did that last year. I thought
about posting the Raymond Carver poem but I kind of wanted to keep that just
for me. Yes, I am aware of the irony.
I dithered. I talked
to the Writer by Night about it, about how we have handled our loss and grief differently and why I feel the need to be more open about it. I
questioned my impulse to say anything at all about it on social media, and
then didn’t. I’ve kind of regretted it all
week. The closest I can come to
explaining the regret is this: if they had lived (oh, what an if, that requires
the infinite possibilities of a quantum universe to contain it), Wolf and Fox
would have taken up space and time. Mostly
ours, but some of yours too. They
didn’t, and they don’t, unless the Writer by Night and I, and a few people
closest to us, give it to them. Talking
about them and writing about them is the only space and time I can give – and
as that’s so little, sometimes I want to steal a little bit of space and time
from you too, by demanding that you listen and read. So more irony – if I had written one sentence
then, they wouldn’t have had this blog.
Ps. I should probably note that Birdman passes the Bechdel test
with a healthy number of named female characters. And they wear clothes and everything. I can't really give it the full feminist critique because that's not where my head was at when I watched it. But the bit of the 'making of' I saw afterwards was all about how clever the men were.
Also, for anyone interested, here is the full poem. Obviously the context in Birdman is
completely different, but that’s kind of why it’s so brilliant for all its
simplicity:
Late Fragment – Raymond Carver
And did you
get what
you wanted from this life, even so?
I did.
And what did you want?
To call myself beloved, to feel myself
beloved on the earth.
you wanted from this life, even so?
I did.
And what did you want?
To call myself beloved, to feel myself
beloved on the earth.
Tuesday 23 July 2013
Jenny Ringo Saved My Life: The Sad Part
So it's been a while... I stalled for a few reasons. I hit a bit of a wall with my most recent 'Jenny Ringo Saved My Life ' blog, crucially, the one where in fact she saved my life. And I had a baby. The two things aren't exactly unrelated. One of the reasons I've decided to blog about this now is to stop it hanging over me so I can get on with changing the world again!
I have been asking myself a lot if I am using Wolf and Fox's deaths for self-promotion, which is what has stopped me publishing it in the past. But the truth is, I'm probably using self-promotion to tell the story of Wolf and Fox's lives, which doesn't get told very often. The Virgin Media Shorts competition voting closes on their 2nd birthday. They are as much a part of Jenny Ringo's story as they are mine. So I'm publishing it now. It focuses on the 2nd film as that's where we were when I wrote it, but follow the link above to see the 3rd installment too:
I warned you in the prologue that there were sad bits in this story. This is the sad bit. I guess the over-riding theme of this series of blogs is the hidden personal story behind a public work of art like a film; and I've had many internal debates about how and what to blog, and whether to blog at all about this. But the fact is, there wouldn't be a Jenny Ringo and the Cabaret from Hell without it.
It starts a bit sad because when we made the first film we thought that was the end of our brief career as indie film makers. But it's not that sad, we deliberately planned it that way. Because we wanted to start a new project; raising a family. Eight months after we finished shooting, while the first film was still in post production, we discovered I was pregnant. Two months and an epic bout of morning sickness later, our first scan revealed not one but two babies.
I'm sure very few of you will ever be told you are having twins. Let me tell you, it is an enormous shock, and completely terrifying, and you forget for a week or so that you are at all excited. I worried that I wouldn't be able to give them enough cuddles. And then you start to get your head around it. But it's a massive process, coming to terms with it. Going to Mothercare, which for many expectant mums is a thrilling experience (you can't drink or go to theme parks, remember), just left me teetering on the edge of a panic attack.
But there's something pretty special about expecting two babies at once too, and when you see young twins together you know its going to be something worth going through. And as we started making adjustments to our lives to prepare ourselves for this mammoth change, and as post production on Jenny Ringo and the Monkey's Paw finally finished, we discovered at a scan that we had a complication which occurs in about 10% of identical twins. The next day I had surgery to try to put it right, and the following day I went into premature labour. It was just 6 days too early for the babies to have any chance of survival, and they lived for twelve and thirty four minutes. Let me just add that Chris rarely gets the opportunity (or has the inclination) to talk about it, but its important for me to say that through the whole experience, he was a hero. Although that word seems rather inadequate.
I could write a thousand blogs about the thoughts and feelings I've had in the two years since, managing the grief, making another film whilst pregnant and then the safe arrival of Eric less than a year after the twins death. Suffice to say it is mostly not as bad as you are probably imagining it to be, and I can't take any credit for the world keeping turning in the meantime, it is merely following the path of least resistance. I just went along with it because frankly, there weren't many other options.
We owe the existence of Jenny Ringo and the Cabaret From Hell to four people. To Darren Berry, DOP on Jenny Ringo and the Monkey's Paw, who went for a drink with Chris not long after the twins died and planted the idea of making a second Jenny Ringo film in his head. When Chris came home and suggested it to me, I think it was probably the first time I'd thought more than a week ahead. Suddenly the future wasn't just something to be avoided. Secondly, to our old friend Geraint D'Arcy, who introduced Chris and I, whose relationship with Jenny Ringo pre-dates my own by about 18 months, whose kind and calming presence, along with his wife Jeneatte and lovely son Liet, gave us a short holiday from grief when we needed it most. As he'd had an idea for what at the time was a proposed future episode of a Jenny Ringo tv series, Chris invited him to write it. It is different from the first film, unsurprisingly, a script of light and shade; you see both Geraint's natural humour and the shadows cast by our experiences of the past few months. I think its a richer script for all of that.
And of course, we owe it to Wolf and Fox, our little girls, without whom it would never have been made, at this time, in this way. I have learned that the answer to the question 'would I go back and change it all if I could?', is 'It doesn't matter'. It is how it is. People called me brave afterwards for getting up in the morning, accomplishing the small task of being me and most days remembering to smile. It is very kind, but to me rather misses the point. I have produced 3 films on zero budget with zero professional experience, whilst also having a reasonably demanding full time job. I don't want credit for something bad having happened; what I'd love is some support for the fact that I'm getting out there trying to make something good.
I have been asking myself a lot if I am using Wolf and Fox's deaths for self-promotion, which is what has stopped me publishing it in the past. But the truth is, I'm probably using self-promotion to tell the story of Wolf and Fox's lives, which doesn't get told very often. The Virgin Media Shorts competition voting closes on their 2nd birthday. They are as much a part of Jenny Ringo's story as they are mine. So I'm publishing it now. It focuses on the 2nd film as that's where we were when I wrote it, but follow the link above to see the 3rd installment too:
I warned you in the prologue that there were sad bits in this story. This is the sad bit. I guess the over-riding theme of this series of blogs is the hidden personal story behind a public work of art like a film; and I've had many internal debates about how and what to blog, and whether to blog at all about this. But the fact is, there wouldn't be a Jenny Ringo and the Cabaret from Hell without it.
It starts a bit sad because when we made the first film we thought that was the end of our brief career as indie film makers. But it's not that sad, we deliberately planned it that way. Because we wanted to start a new project; raising a family. Eight months after we finished shooting, while the first film was still in post production, we discovered I was pregnant. Two months and an epic bout of morning sickness later, our first scan revealed not one but two babies.
I'm sure very few of you will ever be told you are having twins. Let me tell you, it is an enormous shock, and completely terrifying, and you forget for a week or so that you are at all excited. I worried that I wouldn't be able to give them enough cuddles. And then you start to get your head around it. But it's a massive process, coming to terms with it. Going to Mothercare, which for many expectant mums is a thrilling experience (you can't drink or go to theme parks, remember), just left me teetering on the edge of a panic attack.
But there's something pretty special about expecting two babies at once too, and when you see young twins together you know its going to be something worth going through. And as we started making adjustments to our lives to prepare ourselves for this mammoth change, and as post production on Jenny Ringo and the Monkey's Paw finally finished, we discovered at a scan that we had a complication which occurs in about 10% of identical twins. The next day I had surgery to try to put it right, and the following day I went into premature labour. It was just 6 days too early for the babies to have any chance of survival, and they lived for twelve and thirty four minutes. Let me just add that Chris rarely gets the opportunity (or has the inclination) to talk about it, but its important for me to say that through the whole experience, he was a hero. Although that word seems rather inadequate.
I could write a thousand blogs about the thoughts and feelings I've had in the two years since, managing the grief, making another film whilst pregnant and then the safe arrival of Eric less than a year after the twins death. Suffice to say it is mostly not as bad as you are probably imagining it to be, and I can't take any credit for the world keeping turning in the meantime, it is merely following the path of least resistance. I just went along with it because frankly, there weren't many other options.
We owe the existence of Jenny Ringo and the Cabaret From Hell to four people. To Darren Berry, DOP on Jenny Ringo and the Monkey's Paw, who went for a drink with Chris not long after the twins died and planted the idea of making a second Jenny Ringo film in his head. When Chris came home and suggested it to me, I think it was probably the first time I'd thought more than a week ahead. Suddenly the future wasn't just something to be avoided. Secondly, to our old friend Geraint D'Arcy, who introduced Chris and I, whose relationship with Jenny Ringo pre-dates my own by about 18 months, whose kind and calming presence, along with his wife Jeneatte and lovely son Liet, gave us a short holiday from grief when we needed it most. As he'd had an idea for what at the time was a proposed future episode of a Jenny Ringo tv series, Chris invited him to write it. It is different from the first film, unsurprisingly, a script of light and shade; you see both Geraint's natural humour and the shadows cast by our experiences of the past few months. I think its a richer script for all of that.
And of course, we owe it to Wolf and Fox, our little girls, without whom it would never have been made, at this time, in this way. I have learned that the answer to the question 'would I go back and change it all if I could?', is 'It doesn't matter'. It is how it is. People called me brave afterwards for getting up in the morning, accomplishing the small task of being me and most days remembering to smile. It is very kind, but to me rather misses the point. I have produced 3 films on zero budget with zero professional experience, whilst also having a reasonably demanding full time job. I don't want credit for something bad having happened; what I'd love is some support for the fact that I'm getting out there trying to make something good.
Thursday 21 June 2012
Raiding Tombs
I’m always excited to hear about a new Tomb Raider game,
because I love Lara Croft. I am a rubbish, and occasional gamer. I see it primarily as a social activity and
prefer games which put more emphasis on problem solving than fighting. I find war games distasteful and strategy
games uninteresting. I like a first
person adventure with a good story.
Lara Croft was just an image to me for a good few years
before I actually played any of the Tomb Raider games and I found her
sickening, unrealistic and overly sexualised, in no way reflective of the women
around me. While (largely thanks to
vastly improved graphics) she now has a much more human appearance, I have to
say this remains the case.
Because I am rubbish at games, everything I learnt about
Lara on my first time controlling her reinforced this image. I spent a lot of time running into walls,
which prompts her to make a slightly orgasmic ‘unh’ noise. She also moans when she bends down to pick up
health or ammo, presumably as a result of her shorts being too tight.
I don’t remember the chronology of my introduction to the
Tomb Raider games, I think I had a brief go on a friend’s playstation of the
second game, then at some time acquired the first game on my PC. Soon afterwards a housemate got a playstation
and my two male housemates and I worked our way through the first few games
together. The more I played, the more
intrigued I became.
Lara Croft is different from any female character you will
find in literature or film for many reasons, some to do with the medium in
which she exists, and some to do with her as a fictional creation. In the first game, you experience her as the
only person in a very remote landscape, prey to dogs, bats, bears and dinosaurs
– obviously. When you encounter another
human being, it is no different from encountering a lion, although they are
harder to kill. The game play emphasis
is much more on problem solving and your ability to control her accurately than
it is on combat. It’s just you and Lara,
and as you progress through the game, your skills develop and she becomes
capable of extraordinary feats.
I loved the first game.
I loved the solitude and simplicity of it, something I appreciate more
as each new addition to the canon is released and is less solitary, more
complicated, and as a result, rather messy.
I love that at no point in the game does it have to be explained how
Lara came to be capable of such daring expeditions, super intelligent and
capable of reading obscure ancient languages in spite of being a woman; she
just is. I love that her gender has
nothing to do with anything. I bonded
with her over that. I also found it
interesting how her personality changed depending on who had the control. In my hands she was cautious, slow and
thorough, in one housemate’s she was reckless and quick, and with the other,
aggressive and certain. I found myself
wondering things about her, her career, her family life, how a woman like that
operated in the world I live in. Let me
be clear, there are reasons why Lara Croft is not, and probably never will be,
a feminist icon, among them that titillation has played a big part in some of
the design and even story choices along the way. Hollywood had the chance to do something more
interesting but made such a ridiculous hash of it – twice – I’m glad they have since
been content to leave her to games.
The new trailer promises a bit of a Lara Croft origin
story. Her history has gradually come
out over the course of the games and comics, often re-writing itself, but this
game depicts the plane crash which is the catalyst in her development as an
adventurer as she learns to survive by herself in the Himalayas - or in this version, a desert island. Excellent, I thought, just Lara learning how
to be Lara. For me it doesn’t need
explaining but it might on the other hand mean a return to that solitary,
simple game play and pure Lara of the first game. And moments of the trailer don't disappoint.
But there seems to be an awful lot of bad guys hanging out
in this wilderness and one of my reservations is how many strands to the story
are introduced in this trailer. And the
issue that has caused some controversy ( beautifully summed up in this Guardian article) and concerns me greatly is the apparent
attempted rape of Lara by one of these bad guys. Maybe one day I will write a whole blog post
about the portrayal of rape in popular culture, but there’s an excellent one
here which covers the main points. It began
to be a problem for me after I realised that in pretty much every film I
watched over about a three month period, a woman was raped or nearly
raped. And it was handled the same way
every time; usually she would be either saved by the hero or this violent crime
would spur the hero on to exact some revenge on her behalf. Apart from the issue of it trivialising rape,
it’s really lazy writing, and insulting to both genders. It reduces all men to potential rapists and
all women to victims. We never see the
consequences of a woman dealing with life after rape, it is never reported to
the police and it never works its way through the normal justice system.
I’d like to make something very clear. A woman does not need to be raped, or have
someone attempt to rape her, in order to become (in this case) Lara Croft. It is possible that some women just are
strong, powerful, determined and dispassionate enough to shoot a dog without
hesitation if it looks like it’s about to eat her (this incredible story from
This American Life comes to mind).
I suspect being a victim of rape does not in any way make
you stronger. There is no justification
I can imagine for putting this attempted rape into the game, and the trailer
(would seeing this scene make anyone actively WANT to play the game?), and I’m
disappointed that the makers don’t have enough faith in their central character
to give her a more positive origin tale.
The executive producer said this about Lara in an interview with Kokatu:
“When people play Lara, they don't really project themselves into the
character. They're more like 'I want to
protect her.' There's this sort of dynamic of 'I'm going to this adventure with
her and trying to protect her.'" I
would love to know what research this is based on. If you really want to protect
her, surely you wouldn’t take it out of the box, because then she’d never have
to go through being munched on by wildlife and shot at by bad guys. Perhaps you could have a version where Lara
stays at home and bakes and you have to stop her burning herself on the oven.
I’ll play the new
Tomb Raider, and I’m still hoping I’ll love it in spite of this. But by giving Lara this experience, the makers have
undermined their character and my relationship with her. How can I think less of her because of an
attempted rape, and how can I not?
Monday 9 April 2012
Jenny Ringo Saved My Life: Is Jenny a Feminist?
This is the third blog in a series about two short films I have made in the past couple of years. You can find out more about the films here.
Ages ago the Writer by Night wrote a blog about whether Jenny Ringo is a feminist, and how he would leave it to me to answer that question. I suppose now I really ought to get around to doing as I am told like a good little wife.
My timing is spectacularly bad; I have missed Women in Horror Month and International Women's Day, which I mostly celebrated by getting very angry about Texan abortion law and women's healthcare funding. If you are a woman in the States reading this, might I suggest that this is addressed as a matter of urgency? Once you've got that sorted, feel free to come back and catch up on the blog.
I think for many people who will read this post, the biggest question is not 'is Jenny Ringo a feminist?', but 'does it matter?' Yes, it does. It matters tremendously to me, and I hope I can make it matter even a little bit to you too.
When my grandmother was born, she was born without the right to vote when she reached adulthood. In England, in the twentieth century. Isn't that utterly extraordinary? And here I am, 100 years later, voting, with a career and the ability to be financially independent from my husband, I have been to university and graduated. I have chosen to change my name in marriage and I enjoyed every part of being able to make that decision. I have a thousand freedoms my great-grandmother could only dream of, and were scarcely more real to her daughter.
Feminism isn't complicated, or controversial. Caitlin Moran in How to be a Woman (read it!) sums it up beautifully: 'Put your hand in your pants. a) do you have a vagina? b) do you want to be in charge of it?' However, feminism isn't the exclusive right of people with vaginas, people without can join in too. Basically, if you think everyone has the right to be in charge of what is in their own pants, you are a feminist. Wikipedia has a slightly more sophistcated definition (it was closer than my dictionary):
'Feminism is a collection of movements aimed at defining, establishing, and defending equal political, economic, and social rights for women.[1][2] In addition, feminism seeks to establish equal opportunities for women in education and employment. A feminist is a "person whose beliefs and behavior are based on feminism'.
...but essentially it is saying the same thing.
What you need to accept in order to understand that it matters whether Jenny Ringo is a feminist film, is that while massive progress has been made, WE AREN'T THERE YET. You might not realise it, because in your day to day life you meet women who appear to have equal political, economic and social rights to men. But statistically, there is still a massive gap (and I'm just talking about the UK now) between the salaries of men and women. Many of the government welfare cuts will affect payments made to women rather than men. Women are under represented in parliament and especially in government; but socially (and culturally) is where the gap is biggest, and most insidious. Have you seen this advert? Its a perfect illustration because its so... innocuous. But in every kind of media, everyday, there are a thousand little moments like this, very gently putting women back in 'their place'. I very rarely see a world where men and women have equally social rights portrayed in print, on film, tv, in video games, or anywhere. Playing the excellent and weird Deadly Premonition on xbox at the moment, I told Chris I thought it suffered from Steig Larsson (writer of Girl with a Dragon Tattoo etc)'s problem of being rather unhealthily obsessed with highly sexualised violence against women. He commented that it was referencing the American style of detective story, and he was right. But if all we see is these works referencing each other, where are the women who aren't victims? Where are the men capable of treating women as equals rather than dishwashers? Because they exist in the world I live in, but not the one that is presented to me as the world I live in.
This pisses me off. It should piss you off too. So it matters whether we have made a feminist film, because if we haven't, we are adding to the massive cultural heap of stuff that prevents women from achieving true equality.
Jenny Ringo is a feminist character although she never declares that her beliefs and behaviour are based on feminism, and sorry to disappoint but you never see her put her hand in her pants. If you asked her herself she would probably say she prefered not to align herself with any particular political ideology, or any organisation with an ideology come to think of it. But you can tell from every action that she takes in both films that no one is going to be in charge of what is in her pants apart from her.
Jenny Ringo and the Monkey's Paw and Jenny Ringo and the Cabaret from Hell are feminist films because they were films made by men and women working under equal conditions, and everyone was not-paid equally. They were written by my favourite feminist and another feminist I know and love. Because of this, in both films you get to see women doing and saying things they don't usually get to do and say in films. They do and say them while wearing clothes. In both films all the female characters exert a kind of power which isn't linked to their sexuality; in fact they are more powerful than any of the male characters, but they don't have to behave in masculine ways to achieve this. Compare this with, I don't know, Sucker Punch, and you see what female empowerment is actually about.
Although the feminist credentials of the films aren't perfect. There's a bit in the second film where Jenny does some washing up.
If reading this has inspired you to watch the first film, you can go to www.jennyringo.com, and find out how. Once you are on the mailing list, we'll let you know when the second film is finished!
Ages ago the Writer by Night wrote a blog about whether Jenny Ringo is a feminist, and how he would leave it to me to answer that question. I suppose now I really ought to get around to doing as I am told like a good little wife.
My timing is spectacularly bad; I have missed Women in Horror Month and International Women's Day, which I mostly celebrated by getting very angry about Texan abortion law and women's healthcare funding. If you are a woman in the States reading this, might I suggest that this is addressed as a matter of urgency? Once you've got that sorted, feel free to come back and catch up on the blog.
I think for many people who will read this post, the biggest question is not 'is Jenny Ringo a feminist?', but 'does it matter?' Yes, it does. It matters tremendously to me, and I hope I can make it matter even a little bit to you too.
When my grandmother was born, she was born without the right to vote when she reached adulthood. In England, in the twentieth century. Isn't that utterly extraordinary? And here I am, 100 years later, voting, with a career and the ability to be financially independent from my husband, I have been to university and graduated. I have chosen to change my name in marriage and I enjoyed every part of being able to make that decision. I have a thousand freedoms my great-grandmother could only dream of, and were scarcely more real to her daughter.
Feminism isn't complicated, or controversial. Caitlin Moran in How to be a Woman (read it!) sums it up beautifully: 'Put your hand in your pants. a) do you have a vagina? b) do you want to be in charge of it?' However, feminism isn't the exclusive right of people with vaginas, people without can join in too. Basically, if you think everyone has the right to be in charge of what is in their own pants, you are a feminist. Wikipedia has a slightly more sophistcated definition (it was closer than my dictionary):
'Feminism is a collection of movements aimed at defining, establishing, and defending equal political, economic, and social rights for women.[1][2] In addition, feminism seeks to establish equal opportunities for women in education and employment. A feminist is a "person whose beliefs and behavior are based on feminism'.
...but essentially it is saying the same thing.
What you need to accept in order to understand that it matters whether Jenny Ringo is a feminist film, is that while massive progress has been made, WE AREN'T THERE YET. You might not realise it, because in your day to day life you meet women who appear to have equal political, economic and social rights to men. But statistically, there is still a massive gap (and I'm just talking about the UK now) between the salaries of men and women. Many of the government welfare cuts will affect payments made to women rather than men. Women are under represented in parliament and especially in government; but socially (and culturally) is where the gap is biggest, and most insidious. Have you seen this advert? Its a perfect illustration because its so... innocuous. But in every kind of media, everyday, there are a thousand little moments like this, very gently putting women back in 'their place'. I very rarely see a world where men and women have equally social rights portrayed in print, on film, tv, in video games, or anywhere. Playing the excellent and weird Deadly Premonition on xbox at the moment, I told Chris I thought it suffered from Steig Larsson (writer of Girl with a Dragon Tattoo etc)'s problem of being rather unhealthily obsessed with highly sexualised violence against women. He commented that it was referencing the American style of detective story, and he was right. But if all we see is these works referencing each other, where are the women who aren't victims? Where are the men capable of treating women as equals rather than dishwashers? Because they exist in the world I live in, but not the one that is presented to me as the world I live in.
This pisses me off. It should piss you off too. So it matters whether we have made a feminist film, because if we haven't, we are adding to the massive cultural heap of stuff that prevents women from achieving true equality.
Jenny Ringo is a feminist character although she never declares that her beliefs and behaviour are based on feminism, and sorry to disappoint but you never see her put her hand in her pants. If you asked her herself she would probably say she prefered not to align herself with any particular political ideology, or any organisation with an ideology come to think of it. But you can tell from every action that she takes in both films that no one is going to be in charge of what is in her pants apart from her.
Jenny Ringo and the Monkey's Paw and Jenny Ringo and the Cabaret from Hell are feminist films because they were films made by men and women working under equal conditions, and everyone was not-paid equally. They were written by my favourite feminist and another feminist I know and love. Because of this, in both films you get to see women doing and saying things they don't usually get to do and say in films. They do and say them while wearing clothes. In both films all the female characters exert a kind of power which isn't linked to their sexuality; in fact they are more powerful than any of the male characters, but they don't have to behave in masculine ways to achieve this. Compare this with, I don't know, Sucker Punch, and you see what female empowerment is actually about.
Although the feminist credentials of the films aren't perfect. There's a bit in the second film where Jenny does some washing up.
If reading this has inspired you to watch the first film, you can go to www.jennyringo.com, and find out how. Once you are on the mailing list, we'll let you know when the second film is finished!
Thursday 1 March 2012
Jenny Ringo Saved My Life: How I Met Jenny Ringo
This is the second blog in a series about the inside story of our short films featuring Jenny Ringo. To find out more about the projects, read the prologue here.
I said this story was sad in places, luckily, this bit isn't one of them. Meeting Jenny Ringo coincided, not at all coincidentally, with getting involved with a young writer called Chris Regan, which is an almost exclusively happy story. I apologise for the lack of pretty pictures to distract you from the block of text, but this all happened in the days before digital cameras, and it feels kind of wrong to write about that Jenny with pictures of Jenny Ringo as she is now.
I first encountered Jenny in November 2000. Chris and I were in that stage of a new relationship when you have just realised this could be something special and want to know everything about the other person immediately. We were swapping favourite books, films and music (on mix tapes, it really was that long ago). I asked for some of Chris's stories, and he gave me a handful.
I had never read anything like them; he had such an easy, casual style completely different from the kind of modern fiction I was used to. He blended humour and horror that bordered on surreal in a way that appeared to be effortless. To me it seemed utterly daring and original. Sure, it wasn't perfect, he was a 20 year-old student and still had a lot to learn, but I don't think I had ever read something by one of my peers that displayed such natural talent and confidence. I have been scouring the flat for one of them to share a snippet with you, but I haven't unearthed one yet.
And in with that handful of stories must have been one or two early outings of Jenny Ringo; dyed black hair, goth clothes and style, an enormouse sense of adventure and capable of real magic. As a character, I loved her immediately. As the fictional creation of my new boyfriend, I found her extremely intimidating. Surely this was, on some level, his ideal woman. The bad news was, she was nothing like me. She was way cooler.
We next met in a story Chris wrote for me during the Christmas holiday; giving you a rundown of the plot would probably make you throw up so I'll spare you too many details (there is also a talking, smoking cat called Ted) but Chris meets Jenny for a drink in the ideal pub in his head, and she gives him some really good relationship advice. I loved the story, but reading this, I realised Jenny wasn't his perfect woman, she was his female best friend. This was even worse news. I'd had boyfriends with a female best friend before. This never turns out well. As the girlfriend, you are the one who causes all the problems while the female best friend is there giving great advice and creating hassle-free fun times. Before you know it, they are more in love with their female best friend than they are with you. And Jenny, being fictional, was never going to ditch Chris for a boyfriend or mess things up by turning into a stalker. I began to resent Jenny just a little bit.
Chris had to explain to me the real roots of Jenny Ringo. She was really aspects of himself, and if she was his ideal, it was who he wanted to be rather than fall in love with. She isn't perfect, in fact, she's highly flawed, but this never deters her from trying to do the right thing; fight evil, help people, make awesome music. She's the part of him that loves goth culture, that would really like to tell evil people to fuck off, that wants to exist outside of what everyone else thinks. I had been blind to it for the most basic of reasons, that Jenny's a girl and he's a boy, but once we'd talked about it, it was glaringly obvious to me. From then on, my insecurities disappeared and I loved Jenny Ringo unconditionally.
Over the years, she has put in sporadic appearances in stories written for me, and for Chris, and occasionally for the rest of the world. She's had her own feature, she's joined forces with some of Chris's other characters that I can't tell you too much about but you may get to meet in the not-too-distant future, and even had a cameo in a computer game once. Recently its been a bit like status updates from an old friend on facebook; you are briefly reminded how much they mean to you and you wish you could hang out more. I can't pretend I wouldn't have produced any film which Chris asked me to, but I'm really glad it was a Jenny Ringo film.
After drafting this blog post, and asking Chris if he minded me blogging about him, he told me he'd written a blog about Women in Horror Month which also covered the origins of Jenny; as well as why we shouldn't get upset with Zach Snyder over Sucker Punch. You can read it here.
I said this story was sad in places, luckily, this bit isn't one of them. Meeting Jenny Ringo coincided, not at all coincidentally, with getting involved with a young writer called Chris Regan, which is an almost exclusively happy story. I apologise for the lack of pretty pictures to distract you from the block of text, but this all happened in the days before digital cameras, and it feels kind of wrong to write about that Jenny with pictures of Jenny Ringo as she is now.
I first encountered Jenny in November 2000. Chris and I were in that stage of a new relationship when you have just realised this could be something special and want to know everything about the other person immediately. We were swapping favourite books, films and music (on mix tapes, it really was that long ago). I asked for some of Chris's stories, and he gave me a handful.
I had never read anything like them; he had such an easy, casual style completely different from the kind of modern fiction I was used to. He blended humour and horror that bordered on surreal in a way that appeared to be effortless. To me it seemed utterly daring and original. Sure, it wasn't perfect, he was a 20 year-old student and still had a lot to learn, but I don't think I had ever read something by one of my peers that displayed such natural talent and confidence. I have been scouring the flat for one of them to share a snippet with you, but I haven't unearthed one yet.
And in with that handful of stories must have been one or two early outings of Jenny Ringo; dyed black hair, goth clothes and style, an enormouse sense of adventure and capable of real magic. As a character, I loved her immediately. As the fictional creation of my new boyfriend, I found her extremely intimidating. Surely this was, on some level, his ideal woman. The bad news was, she was nothing like me. She was way cooler.
We next met in a story Chris wrote for me during the Christmas holiday; giving you a rundown of the plot would probably make you throw up so I'll spare you too many details (there is also a talking, smoking cat called Ted) but Chris meets Jenny for a drink in the ideal pub in his head, and she gives him some really good relationship advice. I loved the story, but reading this, I realised Jenny wasn't his perfect woman, she was his female best friend. This was even worse news. I'd had boyfriends with a female best friend before. This never turns out well. As the girlfriend, you are the one who causes all the problems while the female best friend is there giving great advice and creating hassle-free fun times. Before you know it, they are more in love with their female best friend than they are with you. And Jenny, being fictional, was never going to ditch Chris for a boyfriend or mess things up by turning into a stalker. I began to resent Jenny just a little bit.
Chris had to explain to me the real roots of Jenny Ringo. She was really aspects of himself, and if she was his ideal, it was who he wanted to be rather than fall in love with. She isn't perfect, in fact, she's highly flawed, but this never deters her from trying to do the right thing; fight evil, help people, make awesome music. She's the part of him that loves goth culture, that would really like to tell evil people to fuck off, that wants to exist outside of what everyone else thinks. I had been blind to it for the most basic of reasons, that Jenny's a girl and he's a boy, but once we'd talked about it, it was glaringly obvious to me. From then on, my insecurities disappeared and I loved Jenny Ringo unconditionally.
Over the years, she has put in sporadic appearances in stories written for me, and for Chris, and occasionally for the rest of the world. She's had her own feature, she's joined forces with some of Chris's other characters that I can't tell you too much about but you may get to meet in the not-too-distant future, and even had a cameo in a computer game once. Recently its been a bit like status updates from an old friend on facebook; you are briefly reminded how much they mean to you and you wish you could hang out more. I can't pretend I wouldn't have produced any film which Chris asked me to, but I'm really glad it was a Jenny Ringo film.
After drafting this blog post, and asking Chris if he minded me blogging about him, he told me he'd written a blog about Women in Horror Month which also covered the origins of Jenny; as well as why we shouldn't get upset with Zach Snyder over Sucker Punch. You can read it here.
Friday 24 February 2012
Jenny Ringo Saved My Life: Prologue
She did, in some ways. And she isn’t even real. This is the beginning of a series of blogs about the role that this fictional character has played in my life over the last eleven years, and how she came to be the subject of two short films I have produced. Its not a particularly long story; it's a little sad in places, but as far as there is an ending, it is more or less a happy one.
You might have found this blog because you know me, or someone involved in the film. You might have been kind to the strange people at EMS giving out lollies and free films and signed up to our mailing list. You might have serendipitously stumbled across Jenny in the vast landscape of the internet. So to get you all up to speed:
Jenny Ringo and the Monkey’s Paw is a 25 minute horror-comedy we shot on a shoestring budget in the summer of 2010. Post production was slow for various reasons and the completed film was unveiled in September 2011, by which time we had started planning the sequel, Jenny Ringo and the Cabaret From Hell, which we shot 11th-17th February this year. The film is just entering post production and our goal is to finish it by the end of June 2012.
If you fancy seeing the first film, sign up to the mailing list at www.jennyringo.com and you will get a confirmation email with a link and password to the film online. We don’t spam you, it's just to keep you up to date with the progress of the second film once a month. Here is the trailer:
and if that doesn’t convince you, previous viewers have likened it to Spaced, The Mighty Boosh, or a kids tv show with swearing in it. We’re generally pretty happy with these comparisons!
Over the next few weeks, I’m intending to blog about the inside story of Jenny Ringo, what she means to me and why its important to me that other people get to meet her too, through these films and future projects. If you also want to know about the ‘outside’ story of Jenny Ringo and the making of the films, check out my husband’s production diaries for the first film, starting here. If big chunks of text aren't you thing, how about liking us on Facebook and getting your updates in nice little bitesize pieces?
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